So let's start with my health. I was diagnosed with Celiac in March of 2008. Recently I was diagnosed with AS (ankylosis spondylitis) as well. Before all of this I was told I have disc degenerative disease and poly arthritis. I have had countless surgeries in the past to include a hysterectomy and gallbladder surgery. Medically I am a mess!
Physically I am a mess too. I have gained way too much weight and I would love to say it's because I have all these medical reasons but reality is I've let myself get to where I am. I know weigh at least 80lbs over what I should. I tend to say well let me eat this and then I won't do it again and I'll get back on track or well I am really stressed out and need this food right now. I have all sorts of excuses (running of your own- give me a call)!
Mentally - well I am tired. I am stressed about daily life things (like everyone else), I still have my childhood "wrongs" to deal with (though I think I've dealt with most of them some keep popping up), I miss my mom who died when I was 17 and well - let's just say mentally I could use some pick me ups here!
So what does that leave - oh yea my soul. That seems pretty important - so with all of this going on I want to continue my spiritual journey as well. Where am I headed? Well hopefully on God's path - but I guess we'll have to see.
So, on Monday after running some errands I was driving home thinking about my weekend. Plain and simple it was tough. I hurt so bad and felt very helpless about it all. I ended up staying up until 2am last night and during that time I did a lot of thinking. I thought about how I got to where I am, I thought about my past and all the pain and suffering I endured and I thought about why I wasn't moving forward to being healthy now in all parts of my life.
So the solution - I am going to blog my way to a healthy body, heart and soul! I figured if I had to write it down and be accountable I'd be more than willing to follow through with it. Truth be told - I am just tired of the pain, the weight, the emotional roller coaster, the diseases, the mental issues, and feeling lost spiritually - well I guess EVERYTHING and like my husband says "if you don't like it then fix it".
So I start my journey with a plan (well sorta). I am going to start on my health first. So I am reading up on a book by my doctor called "Diet for a pain free life". I think I am going to start there. From there who knows but at least I have a starting point!
So come along on my journey with me - let me know your thoughts, what you are going through and anything else you want to tell me about! I look forward to moving well forward :)
God Bless!
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